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[He was screwing things up for sure, wasn't he? But how could he help it when Shoot was so damn weird?! It's still amazing for Knuckle to think that they've been partners like this for so long and he still didn't understand him one bit. In a lot of ways, it was frustrating. Before, he didn't give a damn, but now--! Why was that?

In other ways, though, it pressed at him like guilt. He was a kind-hearted guy, so why hadn't he spared just a little more of that for someone who's been fighting and training at his side?

Shoot appears out of nowhere about now, and it startles Knuckle out of his thoughts. Geez, the guy really doesn't make a noticeable impression, so he can pop up from behind anywhere and give you a shock... At least he doesn't jump or anything. It's just a quick glance to the side that he appears on.]

Huh?

[He'd been staring at these little book keychains with names on them looking for his own for too long, probably. Straightening himself, he moves his eyes back to the stack of books, and sees--

The cutest bookmark he's ever seen.

Granted, he hasn't looked at very many bookmarks. Now, though, he's unsure of how to react. First, there's his pride. Embarrassment, why did Shoot give him one with a tassle and a puppy like that, did he think--]

It's-- [His expression is morphing between disgusted and in love, save him. He can't resist this, damn it! Damn it!!!] Okay! [Taking that whole stack, he slams it down on the counter, looking away like he's just set down something heavier than he can bear.]

I'll take all this!

[At least he didn't look at Shoot very much.]

[Well, Shoot knows that much about Knuckle, after being around him for this long... He looks dutifully elsewhere, at some tiny desk calendars, while Knuckle no doubt has some kind of puppy-related crisis beside him.

Honestly, he doesn't need to look. Knuckle's reaction is practically coming off of him in waves, and Shoot is equally deeply embarrassed and sort of pleased. The bookmark had been a whim and he'd wondered up until giving it to him whether or not he'd be laughed or yelled out of the store... Luckily, Knuckle is still as predictable about cute animals as he thought.

It's endearing. He has to admit he's thoroughly endeared, although only to himself and he's definitely not smiling, that was a twitch.

The cashier mercifully doesn't make it worse by so much as blinking at how embarrassing they are, so they can ring up and get out of there without incident. Shoot makes it to the sidewalk before he sighs and mutters,] Sorry.

[like he didn't just deliver a puppy peace offering...]

Do you still want that drink?

[The apology seems to come out of nowhere, seeing as Knuckle hadn't noticed the bookmark was any sort of 'apology' either. Honestly, he'd been so lost in his own thoughts and worries that he'd stopped blaming Shoot almost immediately after he started blaming him. It was his own fault for misunderstanding his own partner so much.

Shoot says a lot that he doesn't get, though, and so he puzzles on that 'sorry' instead of saying he doesn't have to be saying it. By the time the question comes up, he eagerly shoves confusion aside and grins.]

Feeling more outgoing after spending some time with me, huh? [Knuckle no..... that's not what this is at all.....] Hahaha, of course I'd like it!

[A pause, and he looks at Shoot more directly. How to phrase this straightforward without scaring the guy off...] We should get to know each other a bit more. And what's better at loosening you up than alcohol? When it goes down, words come up!

[And well, he and Morel have both learned that that's not the only thing that could come up, so.]

[Awkward moments seem to slide off Knuckle effortlessly, which Shoot appreciates. He couldn't ever be that genuine, so at least one of them has that going for them. It makes him feel a little better; he's still unsure of how to proceed with this whole... this thing, ever since it stopped being "get a drink and then go home," but he thinks he can manage.

Probably. That it's Knuckle helps; familiarity helps, even if it's still longevity over knowing each other as well as they could.

Which, well. There is that suggestion. Shoot doesn't actually look opposed to getting to know each other - it's the rest that makes him slowly look more and more hesitant. Why is this awkward? It's only Knuckle. Out of everyone, Shoot feels he can be around him the easiest.

Even with the yelling and the hovering. Pros, cons.]

You're really persistent about this... [sigh.] Alcohol isn't necessary to have a conversation.

[... And belatedly remembering this isn't an interrogation... ah, damn,] I want to go.

[He's still not understanding Shoot here. Is he convincing him, or himself? Does he really want to go, or is he trying to be nice? But why would he be nice. He scrunches his eyebrows together in thought, arms crossed tightly even with the bag over his wrist.]

Why shouldn't I be? Huh? ...After this whole damn NGL thing, I realized that I haven't really bothered to ask anything about you. I don't know a thing! [He stares at the ground now, as they walk, bothered. But well, he's far more open about this than Shoot, considering... He's willing to say this much.]

We're partners. So I was thinking, why the hell haven't I been acting like it?

[Looking up and over to Shoot, he offers something of a grin, unfolding his arms so that he can lift one fist between them. Come on, knock fists with him, do it.]

Shoot. Will you forgive me?

[He is trying to be nice, but it's for both of them!! Sort of! Don't ask, don't give him that look...

Shoot keeps looking at him and away again, suddenly feeling like they're having two completely different conversations. The fact that Knuckle doesn't think he acts- partner-like enough throws Shoot for a loop, truthfully. They've had their differences, but they work pretty well together when they need to get serious... Is that not-? Did he miss something crucial?

Exactly how much has he missed from behind his walls? So-] What do you mean?

[No, really. He's the one who's supposed to be mad about something, here?? He can't do anything but glance up and down between Knuckle's fist and his face, perplexed.]

Forgive you for what?

F-for...

[What the... Is he completely blind?! How does he not know what he means? Knuckle keeps his hand hovering between them as his mind races for a way to explain. 'I didn't give a shit about you before' 'I never really paid much attention to you' 'You've always been kind of annoying'...

THAT WASN'T ANY GOOD AT ALL.

Tensing, he shakes that hand a few times between them, willing Shoot to knock fists with him even more.]

What do ya mean, for what?! For not going out with you like this sooner! Now shut up and accept it, idiot!

[Oh, is that it? This is a little overdramatic for just that...

Shoot's expression relaxes somewhat, though he still looks slightly taken aback by this whole aside. He realizes up to a point that he's the one between the two of them who pays more attention, so he'd always thought that was just how Knuckle was - easily distracted, more drawn to people more like him than Shoot...

But how does he even put that into words? He didn't mind being ignored unless it was for training, or working? He's not proud of his bad habits.]

It's just that I didn't think you did anything wrong. [He shrugs, frowns- but okay, fine he'll give Knuckle a half-hearted fist bump with the rest of his explanation,] We're always busy.

[This is so strange... He looks at his still raised hand for a moment before dropping it stiffly back to his side and-] Knuckle— um.

[fffffuck]

Busy, yeah, I guess...

[That trails off into mumbling under his own breath. He really doesn't want to explain word for word why he's feeling bad about all of this, because if Shoot's somehow not noticed, then doesn't that mean he's not hurt? And saying something could hurt him...

Maybe he can just make up for the difference quietly. Naturally. Yeah! Really smooth and everything.

He blinks, though, dropping his hand automatically after the fist bump (he doesn't even react, after all that) and frowning curiously.]

Huh? Yeah, what?

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[Shoot's as satisfied by this as he can be. He's more or less past that odd fumble and on to thinking about the next one, which will be his, he's sure of it.

It's just— after all that's happened, he doesn't feel like he's been as open as he ought to be, either. His bad habits notwithstanding, of course, but as much as it would be so much easier to keep his emotions to himself and skirt any possibility of a less than positive reaction... It's unfair. This is what he's telling himself before he wimps out.

Anyway, he probably should have said it sooner—] Thank you. For getting me out of there.

[And for visiting him in the hospital, which is actually too embarrassing for him to say!!]

[Words like that, from Shoot? First, Knuckle reacts in surprise. It's the bookstore all over again, but like ten times worse. or better? The point is, after that, a grin slowly takes over his face, confident, inspired, softheartedness shining even through the way he punches his palm.]

Are you kidding?! Of course I got you outta there! [That's not enough, he decides, and reaches to wrap an arm around Shoots' shoulders, tugging him closer.] I wasn't gonna leave without you!

[He's so serious when he says that, now, but it can't even compare to his mindset back then. Abandoning the world for it... Yeah.]

You— [He starts, but gets cut off by having to stoop abruptly, thank you Knuckle. To his credit, he wasn't about to say something like You didn't have to - ah, he didn't have to drop him, though...

Still, Shoot would have done the same, if their positions had been reversed. So he'll stand here and stoop and not awkwardly pull away.]

I know that. [he. may have assumed? Thanks for punching monsters for him, too.] But I wanted to... say it myself.

[A beat. Go for gold, Shoot, another statement thrown out before he can concentrate too much on saying these things (is this friendship?? Knuckle making him talk with his big stupid grin?),] I'm glad we're partners.

[That actually completely throws him for a loop. Shoot saying anything other than the necessary that hadn't been stated already. Shoot not only doing that, but doing it kindly. To him??? Saying that he was glad they were partners?

Normally, he likes to stay tough (hah), but this hits him right in the heart.

And he looks touched. Those eyes get big, his mouth goes from surprised to grinning even despite the tears starting to form-- no, no, he's not going to cry over something so dumb! Not something so dumb as them both being glad about this partnership!]

Shoot! [Yelling his name with emotion out of nowhere is always a good idea. Closing his eyes tight, he grins wider and bumps Shoot's shoulder with his fist, now, lightly.] Of course we're partners, damn it! Of course-- Why wouldn't I be glad, too?!

[Ah, he's getting embarrassing.]

[Ah, no, don't cry- don't even look crying-ish, that's going to hit him right in the emotions. Shoot is at a loss, and so soon after he finally felt a little confident in what he was saying-!]

Knuckle— [People are staring. This was already embarrassing.] Th- Thanks, uh, for agreeing.

[... He's had better lines. He makes a face, despairing, then turns it into something more determined as he reaches out to pull on Knuckle's sleeve. Not in public, this is a public street, come on.]

At least put some alcohol in your system before you start yelling on the street.

[Shit, that sounded endeared- He's just going to keep walking and not think too hard about how he's having a really good time... being stared at every few minutes by strangers.]

[Knuckle can't help but laugh at that reaction. Shoot always seems so calm at first, and then it turns out he's just as emotional?? Or weirder. It's still unclear. He claps Shoot on the back (the lower back because that's all he can reach) in his joy, rubbing at his eyes to keep them dry with his other hand.]

Hahaha, don't worry! I'll be filling up completely! It's not that far ahead, now. [HE'S ALREADY GOT TOASTS LINED UP don't you worry.]

Let's let loose and take it easy!

[You can assume, also, that when they do get there, Knuckle cheerfully ushers Shoot in and demands a couple of bar stools in the "best spot". So, in the middle of everything. It's such a cheesy place, too.]

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[He's not weird-!! Yeah he is. But Knuckle is always more embarrassing, crying like this in public...

Shoot sighs, punctuated by letting go of his sleeve and continuing to walk. So, a good sigh? It's hard to tell when he's actually in a good mood given his perpetually grumpy face, but most likely good.

He'll need the sighs of shame for when the toasts start coming out. Being put front and center at the bar is not what he would have chosen, and he almost objects on the grounds of this being his day, but Knuckle's already made a scene and so they're obligated to keep their good seats...

Well, here they are. Shoot sits slightly hunched over, fiddling with an abandoned coaster with the bar's logo on it. Soooo...]

I'm fine with just a beer.

Just a beer?

[Knuckle looks like the most offensive words in the world have just been uttered to him. He was cheerfully looking over the list of drinks and assortment of things behind the bartender up until that. Now he has to shoot Shoot (heh) a stare and lean in closer.

He presses his finger into the counter top, repeating that motion a few times as he speaks.]

You're always doing that! But listen here, it's your day, right? [There he goes.] 'Just a beer' isn't letting loose. More than that, 'I'm fine' isn't having fun! Pick something that sounds like you'd enjoy it!

[For god's sake, Knuckle. Shoot stares back at him, stubborn. Let him have his big day the way he wants, please??]

I can order another drink later. [See, he even has this coaster.]

If I'm not having fun, you'll be the first to know. I like beer.

[Well, he could take or leave beer, but Knuckle!! Shoot sort of... rolls the coaster at him, very defiantly.]

Stop worrying about it.

I'm not worried...

[Grumbling that out, he turns back to the assortment of drinks and tries to look busy. Beer... that's so boring. Beer?? He likes beer too, but it's different if they're going out somewhere like this! At least get something with a fancy name! Try a couple of drinks!

He can't figure Shoot out. He stares down at the coaster that rolls his way, flattening it with his finger.]

Okay, if you're going to order more, then it's fine. [That sounds less forced and pathetic. Maybe.] Then I'll start with beer, too! Wheat beer. [He has to make it different somehow, apparently.]

[What's wrong with beer?? He doesn't know how to order half the drinks on the menu here without being really embarrassed. What is a "SEX WITH AN ALLIGATOR," emphatic capital letters included?

Knuckle, he can't. He really can't. If it's not a drink someone's reserved-but-still-hip-like-the-kids grandpa would order, he can't. The definitely troubled look he gives the list of drinks right about now makes that pretty clear. Seedy (and non-seedy) bars were hesitantly somewhat within his comfort zone until he had to acknowledge SEX WITH AN ALLIGATOR.]

It's not any fun when you're moody. [Knuckle is the moody one, pass it on.

Anyway he's going to make Exciting Conversation,] So, what were you up to this morning?

I'm not moody!

[He snaps that, so there goes any chance of believing that statement. He gives the bartender their order for now (since Shoot's shy or something, hell if he gets it) and then turns back to Shoot.

This lasts for about half of a second before he's looking away suspiciously.]

Huh? Why do you care about that... Doesn't matter anyway. [STOP BRINGING IT UP] Errands! I was doing errands, alright?

[He's definitely moody... Shoot's content to essentially sit there and let Knuckle do all the talking until their drinks arrive, but-

What is it now? If he had eyebrows, he'd raise them in both surprise and some vague sense of irritation, stop being so defensive.]

I'm— just talking to you. You wanted to get to know each other, so-? Are your errands a secret?

[HUMOR HIM?]

Of course not, fool!

[Yes they are. He leaves that shout as the last thing in the air for a good few seconds before he relaxes in his seat, closing his eyes in focus. He probably just looks like he's either nervous about something or about to burst out in emotion.]

Groceries, household supplies... The usual stuff! [A long pause in which he debates if leaving out things is unfair to getting to know each other.

Sigh.]

There was this lost dog, okay, and it wouldn't leave me alone! So I had to find the owner!

[It's amazing just how many animals and children just won't leave Knuckle alone. It must have nothing to do with him at all. A series of coincidences that all happen to involve Knuckle's heart being the size of a house.

Shoot pauses, then with a similar thought that maybe not saying what he honestly thinks is unfair,] You don't have to be embarrassed...

[Is that-? Will that just embarrass him even more? Then, adding quickly,] There's nothing wrong with it, I mean. You can just ask me not to tell anyone.

[... Anyone else, woops he did tell Gon that one time.]

I'm not embarrassed!

[What a liar. He slams his hands on the counter, just in time for their drinks to arrive.] Don't tell anyone, but it's not because I'm embarrassed! They'll all get the wrong idea! It's just that I wanted to get rid of him!

[He's just going to take his beer and chug it now, don't mind him.]

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wait I misread

how dare

words are hard ok

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I'm so early to work this is what I've chosen

putting up with phone tagging is truly a trial

verily

SEX WITH AN ALLIGATOR

there's nothing i can say here that wouldn't shame me even more

cackles

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