[Paolo is ridiculous and Jindosh studiously ignores him, save for when one of his hands finds its way back into Paolo's hair where it's been for so much of this evening, running his fingers through it lightly and almost distractedly while he just keeps reading. He's ignoring Paolo's commentary, all but talking to himself as he adds his own snide remarks about the book itself by the time Paolo falls asleep.
Ah. Jindosh trails off mid-sentence when he realizes, looking down at Paolo again as he lowers the book and puts it down to the side. This isn't like him—to come back and do this simply because Paolo looked disappointed that he was leaving? To read to him? Is he overestimating the significance of his feelings after sleeping with him, or did sleeping with him bring these feelings to the forefront of his mind after being ignored??
All of it feels like a fist closed around his heart and he hates it, but he smooths Paolo's hair back one more time before sighing shortly, inaudibly, and flipping pages in that notebook on the bed so he can in fact do some work.
Somehow, at an obscene hour to still be awake, Jindosh manages to rearrange their sleeping positions without shaking Paolo awake (he doesn't want to hear the whining, honestly) and lies down for his requisite 4 hours of sleep. If he can even get that many, tonight.]
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Ah. Jindosh trails off mid-sentence when he realizes, looking down at Paolo again as he lowers the book and puts it down to the side. This isn't like him—to come back and do this simply because Paolo looked disappointed that he was leaving? To read to him? Is he overestimating the significance of his feelings after sleeping with him, or did sleeping with him bring these feelings to the forefront of his mind after being ignored??
All of it feels like a fist closed around his heart and he hates it, but he smooths Paolo's hair back one more time before sighing shortly, inaudibly, and flipping pages in that notebook on the bed so he can in fact do some work.
Somehow, at an obscene hour to still be awake, Jindosh manages to rearrange their sleeping positions without shaking Paolo awake (he doesn't want to hear the whining, honestly) and lies down for his requisite 4 hours of sleep. If he can even get that many, tonight.]